2019

Alhamdulillah it's been an interesting journey thus far. So much has happened and so much to learn. Motherhood. Motherhood has been rewarding and very challenging. To say that it has been easier is not the complete truth. There were seasons where it is difficult to be grateful. Difficult to be thankful for all the blessings that I have. Self- identity. This has been my struggle for so long. To tell you the truth, I have no idea who I am. Really. I know my strengths, weakness and my role I have to play in this world, but beyond that I don't know who I am. At the very core, the real me. I have been unmasking slowly, layer by layer. I am odd. I am. And I am okay with that. I cant fit in and no matter what I do, I will not fit in. That's the hard truth I discovered when I hit 30. I am... just me. Values. Tried strongly with my self identity. I am trying to align my values with my actions. My values are important. My values are me. Happiness. Happiness comes with a price. For me, at least. I feel deeply. Every emotions. Swimming around in my consciousness. What to you then? I used to numb them because they are scary. But then, I learned that I am also numbing joy, my ability to feel happiness. I choose to feel happy, and sad and angry and in terrible agony.

Sleep regression

So today was not bad. Im feeling much better. More patient. This week was hard. I have a short temper and the receiving end is sadly my children. So today I did not cooked. I went to Sun Plaza to buy lunch and Dapur Ummi's catering for dinner. Bought them chicken chop but Matin wont eat it. Not even french fries. Safiya ate the chicken but leave out the french fries because it was soggy with gravy. And so back to topic. Sleep regression. Before, I dont know what sleep regression is. I dont think Safiya had sleep regression. Or maybe it wasnt that noticable. With Matin, I know sleep regression when it occured. It was soo bad and it took afew weeks to be better. He never missed it. He hit every single one of it. It usually coincides with growth spurts but all I know its really bad. So now I'm in the middle of it. Right smack in the middle of it. Sleep regression because of new sibling. Yup I googled it. But then again its just a phase. So for now.. just hang on.. yes you can do it!

And so its been a looooong time since i blogged. I feel that I should start blogging again. Its just for memories sake. So that I can look back and recall the ups and downs of raising 3 kids. Yes. 3 kids. S, M and L. Nur Safiya, Abdul Matin Rayyan and Luthfi Abdul Hadi. Safiya is now 5, Matin 2 and Luthfi almost 2 months old. Its been crazy lately. With a newborn, a toddler and a preschooler. But I'm really blessed. Matin's been really cranky lately, with tantrums and what nots. And the awful sleep regression. Arrghhh.. There's sooo much to write. My mind is all over the place right now. Will be back insya Allah.

Dear Safiya

Dear Safiya, It's been awhile since mama updated this blog.. It's becos mama is spending soo much time with you.. Mama loves u so much.. U are my precious! Today u are 1 yr 10 months +.. you are soo close to 2! Such a big girl now! U are very very playful now.. always asking mama n papa to play with u.. U are able to communicate better now.. you learnt lots n lots of words! N now its the holidays so we r spending sooo much time together as a family.. papa has planned out our itinery! there'll be lots of fun! In Shaa Allah! To the zoo, swimming, playground, picnic, bird park n sooo much more!! looking forward to spending soo much time with u! =))

1 year 1 month plus

My dear Safiya,

You are so adorable. I love you so much.. u bring so much laughter in our lives.. every moment is such so perfect and beautiful.. U started walking at 1 yr plus.. on 23 February.. thats when u took the longest step without falling.. It amazing.. =)

Now u are sleeping so peacefully.. n u r able to understand everything so well.. its jus wonderful to have u..N u r able to sip on straws a few days back.. =)

Love,
mama

Milestones...

hmmm... need to keep track of these..

1) Safiya's able to sit on her own at 6 mnths plus...
2) Crawling starts at 9 mnths plus (real crawling)
3) Cruising starts at 9/10 mnths plus..
4) First teeth at 10 mnths plus..
5) Now safiya has 4 teeths!
6) Climbing down frm bed/ sofa at 10 mnths plus..
7) Walk with walker at 10 mnths plus..
8) Her possessiveness of her toys at 10 mnths plus..
9) Her becokness at 10 mnths plus..
10) Her intelligence improved dramatically at 10 - 11 mtnths..
11) Being able to understand what is said at 10 mnths plus..
12) Know people by name at 11 mnths..
13) saying 'cat' and 'sun'at 10 mnths almost 11..
14) started dancing at 10 mnths plus.
15) First time stand on her two feet while clapping hands at 11 mnths.. 1/1/2012
16) Climbing stairs n rocker at 10 mnths almost 11..
17) Clapping of hands at 10 mnths..
18) Giving things to people and then clap hands at 10 mnths...


Waiting for many many mre to come..

16 december 2011

Oh ya safiya is an expert at crawling now! She's been crawling at 10 mnths!