16 december 2011

Oh ya safiya is an expert at crawling now! She's been crawling at 10 mnths!

Safiya 10+ months

16 december 2011
Safiya is so sweet and adorable.. n she's so smart! She has her first teeth! A teennie weenie teeth at the top.. I spotted it when she was crying at the top of her lungs!Finally!

She's gd at clapping now.. so adorable.. It is truly a blessing to be your mother.. now i know how it feels like to be a mother.. I loev you more than I could love myself..

This is the best part of being a teacher! December! 2 holidays.. awesome!!!

First KL ( 3 - 6 dec)

Safiya, this is your first trip overseas and your first plane ride! Mama am so nervous.. but alhadulillah it went well.. It went better than well.. it's awesome!! =))

The room is fantastic.. There are a few flaws here n there, but it is so cozy and spacious, perfect for a family like ours... I love that room..

Second MBS (10 - 13 Dec)

This is Mama's honeymoon.. The room is great too.. although i take a long time to love it.. There's a balcony.. the toilet is grwat, the room is so modern.. but it gets lonely sometimes.. cos mama miss u soo much.. Mama just wants to hold u and smell u and cuddle u and kiss u..

The food is great to the point of awesomeness! Haha!!

I love holidays!

N we r gg wild wild wet next! =)

its the holidays!

so today marks the end of school!

woohoo!

Safiya is turning 9 months!!

Safiya is turning 9 months! in like 1.5 hrs! now she is a smart baby.. she knows how to wave bye bye.. she knows how to pull herself up to stand in the playpen.. she knows how to rotate while sitting.. she knows how to crawl.. eventhough its by her stomach.. haha.. she's very vocal now.. n she says mama.. tata.. dada.. she jumping up n down now.. she loves to throw things away.. she knows how to wiggle herself out of the rocker eventhough its tied arnd her.. she loves to flap her hands!!

she's our baby.. n we love her!

Safiya's almost walking!

Today marked the milestone for safiya's almost walking! She managed to omplete rounds of rounds of unguided walking around her playpen! holding the top of course.. but its a good start for walking! im so proud! I love ehr sooo much! she's my beautiful baby! alhamdulillah! n she's getting cheeky too! heeeee!

Sunat

Today Safiya dah sunat! yey! kat banyan clinic! she is such a good girl.. it was swift n fast!

today she learnt how to smack her lips n stand on her own.

Holiday break!

Alhamdulillah.. this is my favourite part! Holiday breaks!
So its week 10.. This week is super short.. Monday holiday due to elections day on sat!
Tuesday its Hari Raya! Wednesday its school but only 2 periods 1E2.. Thursday its teachers day celebration and today its Teacher's Day! This is BEST! hahahah! Relaxing no stress..

So now left with 4 more teaching weeks!!! yey!! alhamdulillah.. im enjoying life now for now..

=))))

oh ya my waist is 27 - 28 inches.. n hips 37-38 inches!

Losing weight

Yey!
I am 57.5kg! lost about at least 20 kg!! 20 kg!! wow!!

I tink its becos of puasa.. i eat a little only.. lost weight but keep getting headaches.. maybe not enough calories.. dunno.. or too sudden drop in weight?

Hari raya's coming! but sadly i dont feel the mood.. usually i will feel excited.. but now.. not excited at all..maybe i will feel excited on friday.. maybe.. tmr i am going to buy shoes!! n handbag??

n friday we r going geylang again! n eat dengdeng..

cant wait for the holidays.. its going to be a looong weekend till tuesday.. yey!! for that.. n thurs is halfday n friday holiday! n sept holiday!!

so yey!

11 days of puasa

So now it is the 11th day of puasa! so fast rite! but this week is great cos it is the holiday week! okay so called.. national day week! monday half day! tue and weds no sch! but today there's sch n tmr there's sch too.. no mood giler.. but nvr mind.. the best week has yet to come.. the hari raya week! One day work week!!! yey!!!! only weds work week.. thurs is half day for teachers day!!!!!!

okay now i feel so sleepy.. i love my baby n hubby!

week 5

So now it is week 5 of school! cant wait for national day holiday cos it will be a long holiday yeah!
Monday is the start of puasa....

N safiya has grown so big! I love her! she loves to grab things now! n she knows how to move in her walker... she is my smart smart girl!!

Freaking disillusioned..

School....

So the school term has started already... seriously hectic.. n its only the second week.. dont even have time to eat.. oh wow..

so for now.. 2T1 is doing okay i guess.. 2A2 did my work.. 2A1 seems okay.. 3A2 needs alot of guidance.. 1E2 needs alot of work.. n my dear 1T1 i dunno wat to do.. haish.. aiseyman.. they are really a challenge..

im still trying to adapt.. work will jus come piling n piling... oh my oh my..

but i can do it!!Yes I can!!

Weight management

okay the last time i checked,i weigh 63.5kg.. waist 30 in and hips 41 inch.. now im 59kg. waist 29 in and hips 40 inch.. hmm.. so i lose a little bit... at least im losing.. =)
now my family is in KL.. till sat.. i think they r enjoying themselves... now they are at genting highland...

so far i'm coping much better in motherhood.. im more patient but still need to be more patient..

Safiya is my smart n strong baby girl.. she isable to support herself now.. as in with her legs.. yey! n today she manage to suck her toe!! hehe!

gotta go need to change her diapers!

2nd day of work!

Today is my 2nd day at work.. not much work since it is the exams period.. So today had invigilation and remedial with 2A2. Yesterday I was so stressed, i tink because i felt very nervous.. The students are great.. really.. but they are sometimes emotionally immature thati am afraid to be close to them.. they have strong dislikes and strong likes.. but alhamdulillah they like me.. not like last year when 2A2 dislikes me alot! Allah.. I dont know how i survived with my pregnant self and all.. I hope everything will turn out okay.. i feel so out of touch with everything here.. abit lonely eventhough ppl are surrounding me.. with the poliics and all.. i dont know.. i jus want to go home..

thor

Oh ya and Thor was great! superb!

End of leave

It's been a long time since I blogged. And tmr is the end of my leave and the beginning of working life. 116 days have past. And safiya is now 3 months plus. She is a big girl now. Very observant and active. She loves her bathtime. She has very good motor skills. She has control of her neck since 2 months and soon after that she is able to stand and sit upright. I can pull her up for her to stand on her own two feet. she is growing up fast! She has good muscle control. Her sleeping pattern has been better.she sleeps long hours at night and short naps during the day. Wow! thats my baby! And i spent lots n lots of time with her! she is able to recognise me! Smilong at me and she melts my heart!!

Now im very very sleepy cos I watch election results yesterday. We made History! Woo hoo!! Opposition has finally able to win in a grc!!

hope they are good!

okays now i want to solat n sleep.. stoning....

New family, new house, new baby!

Now im very excited abt my new house! i hope it can be ready soon.. hopefuli! hmm. i wan to start planning to design my own house.. as u noe im very lazy n tend to leave messes arnd.. so now.. my house needs to accomodate to that! haha! must have lots and lots of spaces for me to keep my things.. if not things will be lying arnd everywhere..

Now i have two things to worry abt:
1)work
2)new house

Work

I need to really plan my time well.. really well.. hmm.. cos now that i have a baby, i need to spend time with her! so i will plan it out soon..

New house

Excited! new plannings!!

=)

Bonding with safiya...

Today Safiya and I went sun plaza alone!! yey! first time alone! hehe.. She enjoyed the whole thing I think since she was bz looking arnd.. She's very curious of her surroundings.. I love her alot.. today she pooped! Mon tue- no poop.. wed- poop!! yey! i was so relieved!

Hmmm.. so now i feel really calm and composed.. this whole process has taught me alot of valuable things.. Dont be attached too much on dunia to the extent that u dont want to leave it.. That's how bad my attachment is to this dunia... I dont want to leave it.. I ENJOYED IT..hmmm.. so now i am starting to detach myself from this dunia..all this material things.. every superficial thing is temporary.. And i dont want to leave my husband.. that's when i realised that I love him because of love and not because of ALLAH.. i loved him because i like the feeling of being cared for and being loved in return.. haiz.. its abit complicated.. I am still finding the line..

It came as a shock to me that I have pre eclampsia.. and i was so scared that i was going to die because i dont think i have enough pahala.. n i love this world too much..
so now i should expect that things will sometimes turn out not how i planned it.. u never know what lies ahead.. only Allah knows..

My hubby.. i love him.. when i was a child, i couldnt imagine how it mus feel like to have my own family.. n now i living it.. weeee!! Alhamdulillah.. =) I love u Ya Allah..

Date Nite! Safiya is 7 weeks!

Just came back from a date nite! yey! Watched World Invasion. Okaylah not bad. I like the effects and all and the story can be abit predictable.

Cant believe that Safiya will be 2 months old in 10 days! Wow! How time flies really really fast! And now she sleeps well too.Not like last time. She can see better now. She observes my mouth whenever I talk. =)

And she started to smile and laugh!!

Okay now Im very paranoid about me being pregnant again. I mean I dont mind but the thing is I want my wound to heal properly before getting pregnant again. i dont want it to burst or something. Scary right. Oh Allah please help me. Dont let me get pregnant for at least a year or so. Please please Ya Allah.

I am very contented right now. Ya sometimes I have bouts of panic attack, but Alhamdulillah I am able to shake it off. =)

going to sleep soon.

Happiness

Today Im happy happy happy! Its a happy day! The sun is shining brightly.. and everything seems gay!

Friday(12/3/2011)

We went on a perfect movie-dinner date! We had dinner at breeks.. I had my chicken pattie which was okay okay but my cookies and cream milkshake was really really yummy! Oh wow! Then we watched 'I Am Number Four' which I think is superb! Wow! We went home at around 12 + am.. =) I love late nights outings, makes me feel young! =)

Sat morning was really reallllly oh-so-good.. Spent quality time with hubby!

I love it.. cos I have everything. how could I ask for more. Thank You Ya Allah.. I have everything. It feels really good.

I love my abg.. Somehow I feel like we are one. Connected. And that's all that matters. Yes, I'm on cloud 9...

=)

And it feels so damn beautiful...

Northpoint!

Today I'm gg to northpoint!! Insya Allah! We are gg to shop n shop n shop.. I hope my stomachache will get better.. N now my mood is gg down the drain.. @^%!^%@#^..

Causeway point!

I went to causeway point today! Went at 11 am and came back at arnd 2! First we went to courts to get the humidifier but they didnt sell it.. only dehumidifier and air purifier which we dont need.. Then we went to Metro and voila they sell it.. uMist.. haha so we bought it for $108 dollars. After that we went to buy my corset.. But in the end I bought the girdle up to the waist costing $189.. from triumph.. hehe.. its quite comfotable actually but the problem comes when i want to pee pee.. leceh lah.. but for the sake of beauty, I shall endure it..

After that we went to kiddy palace to buy diapers and milk powder.. but they didnt sell it.. apelah.. so we bought many many baby wipes..

Then Banquet! Weee! Its been a long time since I date with my hubby.. so happy.. As i sat there sipping my tea, I feel a sense of calm and happiness.. And as we drove past woodlands, I feel a sense of bliss.. Thank u hubby for the shopping trip.. I love u very much.. =)

In lalaland..

Tomorrow I am going out on a date with my beloved hubby!! yey! I'm sooo happy! We are going to causeway point to buy diapers and such for Safiya! I am sooo excited! And I hope I could get a corset that is suitable for me.

Now I am very very sleepy! Cos today I am on night shift.. Kesian my mum so I gave her some air to breathe and recharge.. Today Safiya had a hard time sleeping..

Okay she's awake now! bye bye!

Peaceful friday.. I hope

Currently, i feel at ease now.. I feel soo much better already.. Im able to focus better and my body feels stronger physically, emotionally and mentally.. Im being positive now.. Today is the last day of my post natal massage.. Seriously I hate it, cos of the bengkung. I like the massage part cos she massage well, but I hate the tummy part and the bengkung part.. Cos the bengkung is very tight.. It restricted my movement and I hated it.. What I want to do now is to go out and just go out and have lots and lots of fun cos I hate my depressive mood.. Haha! But I have no idea where I should go.. I want to have a romantic date with my hubby.. Cos I want to feel that feeling again.. After going through a rollercoster ride of emotions, I want to fall deep deep in love (like in the past) with my charming hubby.. Cos now when I see him I get really excited.. hehe..

Safiya is a miracle. I cant believe she came from me.. I cant believe she was made inside of me.. I cant believe how one egg and one sperm can fuse to make something so beautiful and perfect as her. Subhanallah!

Our family is complete now.. Me, my hubby and OUR daughter. She's OURS!!

P.s I didnt know after birth can be this hard.. I wasnt prepared for this.. I was too focused on my pregnancy and giving birth that I forgot abt the after birth part.. Haha!

Pain

I am in pain.. in excruciating pain.. Pain that I cannot comprehend.. It just comes and attack u for no reason.. Aduh sakit.. And its not even physical pain.. It is sooo much easier to admit defeat and let it conquer u.. But how can I? When I have a family to think of.. My husband, my daughter, my mum and dad... I dont want to repeat the episode again cos it was really really difficult.. Suppressing it is not as easy as i thought it would be.. I thought by simply ignoring it and blissfully carry on with my life, it would go away.. but it did not.. It attacks u like @$***&&^*&^%^... Like WTH, Im trying to be happy here!! Whats ur problem?? Why cant u go away??? but then I have to be patient with myself.. I have to give myself time.. Patience and time is what I need.. And its an ongoing battle.. tired and weary, but I have to move on.. Allah is by me.. and He wants to test me on how strong I could be.. I hope I can pass His test.. Insya Allah..

Sleep routine

Dear Safiya,

Today Mama tried to train you on how to sleep. Mama read somewhere that you need enough sleep for you to develop properly. So Mama became abit kan-cheong. Since on certain days you just refuse to sleep. You are not suppose to be awake for more than 2 hours. So Mama started counting. Just now to get you to sleep, Mama tried to give you a pacifier but you did not sleep, instead you started stoning. Then Mama was thinking that I should not rely on pacifier to get you to sleep. So Mama decided to just let you lay down and sleep on your own, but you still refuse to sleep. You started fussing around. So Mama carried you and rocked you to sleep, you slept. But once Mama put you down, you were wide awake. It's almost two hours, so Mama decided to breastfeed you. And true enough you started sleeping on Mama's breast. Hehe. So cute. And now you are fast asleep. I love you Safiya!

Miss

I miss my hubby.. :`(

Secondary School Days

I still remember those days when I look forward to 2.10pm cos that is the time when I can go home. So exactly at 2.10pm I rushed back home (dunno why I like to rush but I prefer reaching home before 2.30pm unless its friday cos that was when I had my library duty). Whilst rushing back home, I looked forward to what my mum will be cooking. That time I looked forward to curry ayam, asam pedas, ayam lemak chilli padi, sotong hitam, ayam tomato and so much more. I anticipated what TV show I will be watching whilst eating! After reaching home and ate, I would usually bath, solat and then sleep!! Sleep is very important to me! After sleeping, I did my homework, iron my clothes, watch TV, solat and then sleep! That's the routine. Weekends I will play with my cats, play with my siblings, do homework, study, watch cartoons, go ngaji and thats it! OMG so simple! My life was that simple, except for those PMS thing.

BUT I rather have my life NOW. Cos I have my dreams came through! I have my hubby, the love of my life, and my beautiful princess. Can you beat that? =)

Myself

So now my weight is 63.5kg, my waist is 30 inches, my hip is 41 inches!!! OMG! i used to weigh 51kg-ish, my waist is 27 inches, my hip is 35 inches-ish. Like Wow! I've transformed!!

Safiya

She's my angel, my beautiful angel.. =)

Mood swings

Nowadays, I get pretty crappy alot of times. I get hot and angry and I just couldnt contain it. I could be more forgiving last time, but I guess now I just couldnt do it since I dont have the emotional capacity to contain my anger. Arrghh!! Please lah sakinah. I love my hubby. But I should be more understanding I guess. Now I'm angry at myself.. Arrrgh!

pre eclampsia

So I haven recovered from pre eclampsia. My blood pressure is around 120/95. the first number is good but the second number indicates that I have hypertension. And I have protein in my urine still. I read that it will take 6 weeks for the effects to disappear. I pray that I will be fine. Ya Allah, please protect me from diseases. Maybe its my complacency. Allah wants to test me. I admit it's very scary. I got very down and depressed. Ya Allah, please cure me of this Ya Allah. Hear me Ya Allah. I have a child to take care of. My daughter needs me, my husband needs me. I wish to raise my child Ya Allah. Please grant me good health Ya Allah.

First Entry

Nur Safiya born on 29 Jan 2011 12.45 am.
This blog is all about my life as a wife and mother. Wow, can you believe it.. I'm a mother! I have a complete family now alhamdulillah.. Thanks to Allah swt. I have a caring husband and a beautiful daughter. Now my hubby is eating his dinner and my daughter is sleeping beside me. Soon she'll wake up and ask for her milk. I love her very much! I cant promise that I wont pamper her cos I dont know the line between caring for her and pampering her. For now, I shall pamper her cos she is a newborn! So of course I have to pamper her 24/7. She is my baby! Can you believe it!