Causeway point!

I went to causeway point today! Went at 11 am and came back at arnd 2! First we went to courts to get the humidifier but they didnt sell it.. only dehumidifier and air purifier which we dont need.. Then we went to Metro and voila they sell it.. uMist.. haha so we bought it for $108 dollars. After that we went to buy my corset.. But in the end I bought the girdle up to the waist costing $189.. from triumph.. hehe.. its quite comfotable actually but the problem comes when i want to pee pee.. leceh lah.. but for the sake of beauty, I shall endure it..

After that we went to kiddy palace to buy diapers and milk powder.. but they didnt sell it.. apelah.. so we bought many many baby wipes..

Then Banquet! Weee! Its been a long time since I date with my hubby.. so happy.. As i sat there sipping my tea, I feel a sense of calm and happiness.. And as we drove past woodlands, I feel a sense of bliss.. Thank u hubby for the shopping trip.. I love u very much.. =)

In lalaland..

Tomorrow I am going out on a date with my beloved hubby!! yey! I'm sooo happy! We are going to causeway point to buy diapers and such for Safiya! I am sooo excited! And I hope I could get a corset that is suitable for me.

Now I am very very sleepy! Cos today I am on night shift.. Kesian my mum so I gave her some air to breathe and recharge.. Today Safiya had a hard time sleeping..

Okay she's awake now! bye bye!

Peaceful friday.. I hope

Currently, i feel at ease now.. I feel soo much better already.. Im able to focus better and my body feels stronger physically, emotionally and mentally.. Im being positive now.. Today is the last day of my post natal massage.. Seriously I hate it, cos of the bengkung. I like the massage part cos she massage well, but I hate the tummy part and the bengkung part.. Cos the bengkung is very tight.. It restricted my movement and I hated it.. What I want to do now is to go out and just go out and have lots and lots of fun cos I hate my depressive mood.. Haha! But I have no idea where I should go.. I want to have a romantic date with my hubby.. Cos I want to feel that feeling again.. After going through a rollercoster ride of emotions, I want to fall deep deep in love (like in the past) with my charming hubby.. Cos now when I see him I get really excited.. hehe..

Safiya is a miracle. I cant believe she came from me.. I cant believe she was made inside of me.. I cant believe how one egg and one sperm can fuse to make something so beautiful and perfect as her. Subhanallah!

Our family is complete now.. Me, my hubby and OUR daughter. She's OURS!!

P.s I didnt know after birth can be this hard.. I wasnt prepared for this.. I was too focused on my pregnancy and giving birth that I forgot abt the after birth part.. Haha!

Pain

I am in pain.. in excruciating pain.. Pain that I cannot comprehend.. It just comes and attack u for no reason.. Aduh sakit.. And its not even physical pain.. It is sooo much easier to admit defeat and let it conquer u.. But how can I? When I have a family to think of.. My husband, my daughter, my mum and dad... I dont want to repeat the episode again cos it was really really difficult.. Suppressing it is not as easy as i thought it would be.. I thought by simply ignoring it and blissfully carry on with my life, it would go away.. but it did not.. It attacks u like @$***&&^*&^%^... Like WTH, Im trying to be happy here!! Whats ur problem?? Why cant u go away??? but then I have to be patient with myself.. I have to give myself time.. Patience and time is what I need.. And its an ongoing battle.. tired and weary, but I have to move on.. Allah is by me.. and He wants to test me on how strong I could be.. I hope I can pass His test.. Insya Allah..

Sleep routine

Dear Safiya,

Today Mama tried to train you on how to sleep. Mama read somewhere that you need enough sleep for you to develop properly. So Mama became abit kan-cheong. Since on certain days you just refuse to sleep. You are not suppose to be awake for more than 2 hours. So Mama started counting. Just now to get you to sleep, Mama tried to give you a pacifier but you did not sleep, instead you started stoning. Then Mama was thinking that I should not rely on pacifier to get you to sleep. So Mama decided to just let you lay down and sleep on your own, but you still refuse to sleep. You started fussing around. So Mama carried you and rocked you to sleep, you slept. But once Mama put you down, you were wide awake. It's almost two hours, so Mama decided to breastfeed you. And true enough you started sleeping on Mama's breast. Hehe. So cute. And now you are fast asleep. I love you Safiya!

Miss

I miss my hubby.. :`(

Secondary School Days

I still remember those days when I look forward to 2.10pm cos that is the time when I can go home. So exactly at 2.10pm I rushed back home (dunno why I like to rush but I prefer reaching home before 2.30pm unless its friday cos that was when I had my library duty). Whilst rushing back home, I looked forward to what my mum will be cooking. That time I looked forward to curry ayam, asam pedas, ayam lemak chilli padi, sotong hitam, ayam tomato and so much more. I anticipated what TV show I will be watching whilst eating! After reaching home and ate, I would usually bath, solat and then sleep!! Sleep is very important to me! After sleeping, I did my homework, iron my clothes, watch TV, solat and then sleep! That's the routine. Weekends I will play with my cats, play with my siblings, do homework, study, watch cartoons, go ngaji and thats it! OMG so simple! My life was that simple, except for those PMS thing.

BUT I rather have my life NOW. Cos I have my dreams came through! I have my hubby, the love of my life, and my beautiful princess. Can you beat that? =)

Myself

So now my weight is 63.5kg, my waist is 30 inches, my hip is 41 inches!!! OMG! i used to weigh 51kg-ish, my waist is 27 inches, my hip is 35 inches-ish. Like Wow! I've transformed!!

Safiya

She's my angel, my beautiful angel.. =)

Mood swings

Nowadays, I get pretty crappy alot of times. I get hot and angry and I just couldnt contain it. I could be more forgiving last time, but I guess now I just couldnt do it since I dont have the emotional capacity to contain my anger. Arrghh!! Please lah sakinah. I love my hubby. But I should be more understanding I guess. Now I'm angry at myself.. Arrrgh!

pre eclampsia

So I haven recovered from pre eclampsia. My blood pressure is around 120/95. the first number is good but the second number indicates that I have hypertension. And I have protein in my urine still. I read that it will take 6 weeks for the effects to disappear. I pray that I will be fine. Ya Allah, please protect me from diseases. Maybe its my complacency. Allah wants to test me. I admit it's very scary. I got very down and depressed. Ya Allah, please cure me of this Ya Allah. Hear me Ya Allah. I have a child to take care of. My daughter needs me, my husband needs me. I wish to raise my child Ya Allah. Please grant me good health Ya Allah.

First Entry

Nur Safiya born on 29 Jan 2011 12.45 am.
This blog is all about my life as a wife and mother. Wow, can you believe it.. I'm a mother! I have a complete family now alhamdulillah.. Thanks to Allah swt. I have a caring husband and a beautiful daughter. Now my hubby is eating his dinner and my daughter is sleeping beside me. Soon she'll wake up and ask for her milk. I love her very much! I cant promise that I wont pamper her cos I dont know the line between caring for her and pampering her. For now, I shall pamper her cos she is a newborn! So of course I have to pamper her 24/7. She is my baby! Can you believe it!